distraction, what distraction?

can't stop blogging. it's like months of being in tumblr has been stifling my thoughts, the things i want to say but could not.

or maybe because i get a little incoherent early in the morning.

or maybe i'm just really bored.




I talked to Nic and she cleared my doubts :) THANKS <3 I really needed that talk. Can't think for myself atm. Mind is a bit fuzzy.

Shifted to lollyribena.tumblr.com! :D
Goodbye blogger~

It feels like someone pulled out the veins in your heart and tangled it in a knot.
Watched Sunao_ni_Narenakute ep 3. Again, I'm blown away by this drama. The intensity and the chemistry between all 5 actors is really good. It's a drama that everyone can relate to-

Loneliness - When Park (Jaejoong) said that he was lonely when he first came to Japan alone and when Peach commited suicide when her lover refused to marry her when she's pregnant. That helpless feeling when you have no one to pour your heart or talk to.

Failure - This is evident in the 1st 2 episodes when all 5 of them is going through a rough patch. Nothing comes through for them and life is just difficult.

Happiness - when the 5 of them meet whenever they going through bad time. They meet and share and have fun. It's like a place where you can be yourself and forget about other things in life.

Heartbroken - I really feel for Haru in this drama. In episode 3, she was turned down by Nakaji. Kiriki (Nakaji's lover) accused her of not being good enough for Nakaji.. and then she was pushed to the ground by Nakaji. Watching these scenes.. you'll feel pain for Haru.


I pity Park at the end of episode 3 when he was waiting for Haru and Haru hugged him because she needed someone to comfort her at that time and Park was around to do that.

Another thing, I don't think it's alright for a guy to push a girl down no matter how angry he is.

Sunao ni Narenakute

Sunao ni Narenakute... this drama is really special. I watched this drama because jaejoong was acting in it and my sister who watched it already, said that it's a really good drama. So i did. And ended up falling for nakaji(eita)/haru(ueno juri) couple. I really like the chemistry between the 2 actors and this is the 1st time I'm watching them act.

This drama is about a group of people meeting up after conversing on twitter. It gives off a feeling which shows that.. it can happen to anyone. Knowing each other on twitter and then meeting up and forming a relationship and showcasing the up and downs in their life.

I pity Rinda the most. He's the guy that had to perform sexual acts to his chief editor (who is this fat, old lady) to get promoted/be favourites to the uppers.

While Haru and Nakaji... i love how their relationship blossom from a hate>friends>love status. Especially when Nakaji match-make Park(Jaejoong) Haru thinking that they like each other but it was Nakaji that Haru liked :) so it's really bittersweet.

Not much progression in jae's character. I don't think he's given a big part in this drama and he's supposed to be the love rival to Nakaji ... which isn't much of a rival since Nakaji and Haru already formed a r/s before jaejoong and I don't want to see jae's character break Nakaji/Haru relationship apart.

Go watch this drama if u haven't! ;) It's recommended!

I'm in dire need of John Gray's Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. Should have got the book yesterday D:


Holiday is here :D 10 days only, but better than nothing. It's a far change from my usual pre-final days. Waking up and straight to "what to study today? Audit? Accounts?". Don't get me wrong. I love/enjoy studying a lot. But the stress of trying to cram 100% of what I've studied is killing sometimes.

Gonna enjoy the holi and worry for the results later on. Didn't do as good as my previous exams... maybe degree isn't so easy after all :)



Yesterday, I finally went to Yakiniku, a japanese/korean restaurant. Yakiniku is a japanese word but they serve korean bbq so it caters to both i guess.

- i don't have the pics here now.

On a 30 minutes study break

On a blogging spree~

Avex's team of staffs are so friendly, especially the CEO (Max Matsuura) and SCO. It shows how much they actually care about the fans. Reading their twitter posts is really comforting.. knowing that they're in the same shoes as us, down with emotions. Thank you for accommodating us fans when we needed you the most :)

On a brighter note,

Credits: as tagged

Blubber-boy Yoochun is taking up acting again since "Dating on Earth". This time, he'll be main actor in a Japanese drama :D It's called "Loving You" (temporary title).



3 dramas to watch:
Paradise Meadow - Changmin
Sunao ni Narenakute / 素直になれなくて / Hard To Say I Love You - Jaejoong
Oh My Lady - Siwon
Loving You - Yoochun


I watched a little of Oh My Lady the other day (sis was watching). Before the Suju concert, I wasn't a fan of Siwon, but seeing him at the concert changed my perspective because he's so friendly in real :) He's the 2nd friendliest (Heechul was 1st, of course ;) during the concert. Hehe so that's why I'm going to watch his drama after finals~



So much to study, so little time. Still procrastinating. Keep saying "tomorrow study la, still got time". 2 weeks left. No time already D:

STUDY FIRST, PLAY LATER!

I watched Kaichou Wa Maid-sama's 1st episode on Animax yesterday night. Very impressed by the voice actor and the smoothness of the plot :)

Just started reading the manga just now.. there's 55 chapters (still on-going). Can't wait for finals to be over! I already have a long list of manga and anime to watch!

Running away from time. 8 days more from finals.

R.I.P Tohoshinki ♥

R.I.P Tohoshinki ♥ (April 27, 2005 - April 3, 2010)

When Nicole called me to tell me this, I was sort of, okay they're done as tohoshinki, okay, i accept it. To be honest, since last year, around Aug/Oct, right after their lawsuit is in a standstill, I stopped following or reading their news. It's not that I don't like or love or care about them anymore.

For me, there's nothing worthy to do so because all the reasons of me liking them, were not there anymore. They used to be a tight, wonderful family of five. They're funny, adorable, likeable, they are them- Yunho, Jaejoong, Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin. And they're not like that anymore. There were so many rumours of dispute between the boys itself. It doesn't matter whether it's true or not true. There's a reason why there were rumours in the first place. There must be an inch of truth in them. As a fan, I can't continue to like them when the relationship between they themselves has been destroyed.

From the beginning till now, for me, it's not so much about their singing/dancing ability or them being "The Legend".

Even though they're not Tohoshinki anymore, I will still love them as who they are, as five ordinary human beings. I remember watching their shows and laughing with them and being proud of them when they got on Oricon chart. All these little things.. it's not going to go just because they're not THSK anymore. It means a lot to me.

Also, because of them, I met many good friends whom I have became very close to now and I'm very thankful for that. I also discovered my true interest because, something that I might take in the future after I'm done with my studies.

But what saddens me was since the news of their disbandment came out, a huge majority of fans are declaring to stop supporting them as individuals because they're not Tohoshinki anymore and it's just sad to hear that.

I will still continue to support them individually in the future :)

Good luck on your future undertakings, THSK! :D

is very excited to watch changmin and jaejoong's drama ♥♥♥