Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Shifted to lollyribena.tumblr.com! :D
Goodbye blogger~

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

It feels like someone pulled out the veins in your heart and tangled it in a knot.
Watched Sunao_ni_Narenakute ep 3. Again, I'm blown away by this drama. The intensity and the chemistry between all 5 actors is really good. It's a drama that everyone can relate to-

Loneliness - When Park (Jaejoong) said that he was lonely when he first came to Japan alone and when Peach commited suicide when her lover refused to marry her when she's pregnant. That helpless feeling when you have no one to pour your heart or talk to.

Failure - This is evident in the 1st 2 episodes when all 5 of them is going through a rough patch. Nothing comes through for them and life is just difficult.

Happiness - when the 5 of them meet whenever they going through bad time. They meet and share and have fun. It's like a place where you can be yourself and forget about other things in life.

Heartbroken - I really feel for Haru in this drama. In episode 3, she was turned down by Nakaji. Kiriki (Nakaji's lover) accused her of not being good enough for Nakaji.. and then she was pushed to the ground by Nakaji. Watching these scenes.. you'll feel pain for Haru.


I pity Park at the end of episode 3 when he was waiting for Haru and Haru hugged him because she needed someone to comfort her at that time and Park was around to do that.

Another thing, I don't think it's alright for a guy to push a girl down no matter how angry he is.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Sunao ni Narenakute

Sunao ni Narenakute... this drama is really special. I watched this drama because jaejoong was acting in it and my sister who watched it already, said that it's a really good drama. So i did. And ended up falling for nakaji(eita)/haru(ueno juri) couple. I really like the chemistry between the 2 actors and this is the 1st time I'm watching them act.

This drama is about a group of people meeting up after conversing on twitter. It gives off a feeling which shows that.. it can happen to anyone. Knowing each other on twitter and then meeting up and forming a relationship and showcasing the up and downs in their life.

I pity Rinda the most. He's the guy that had to perform sexual acts to his chief editor (who is this fat, old lady) to get promoted/be favourites to the uppers.

While Haru and Nakaji... i love how their relationship blossom from a hate>friends>love status. Especially when Nakaji match-make Park(Jaejoong) Haru thinking that they like each other but it was Nakaji that Haru liked :) so it's really bittersweet.

Not much progression in jae's character. I don't think he's given a big part in this drama and he's supposed to be the love rival to Nakaji ... which isn't much of a rival since Nakaji and Haru already formed a r/s before jaejoong and I don't want to see jae's character break Nakaji/Haru relationship apart.

Go watch this drama if u haven't! ;) It's recommended!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

I'm in dire need of John Gray's Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. Should have got the book yesterday D:


Holiday is here :D 10 days only, but better than nothing. It's a far change from my usual pre-final days. Waking up and straight to "what to study today? Audit? Accounts?". Don't get me wrong. I love/enjoy studying a lot. But the stress of trying to cram 100% of what I've studied is killing sometimes.

Gonna enjoy the holi and worry for the results later on. Didn't do as good as my previous exams... maybe degree isn't so easy after all :)



Yesterday, I finally went to Yakiniku, a japanese/korean restaurant. Yakiniku is a japanese word but they serve korean bbq so it caters to both i guess.

- i don't have the pics here now.

Monday, April 5, 2010

On a 30 minutes study break

On a blogging spree~

Avex's team of staffs are so friendly, especially the CEO (Max Matsuura) and SCO. It shows how much they actually care about the fans. Reading their twitter posts is really comforting.. knowing that they're in the same shoes as us, down with emotions. Thank you for accommodating us fans when we needed you the most :)

On a brighter note,



Credits: as tagged

Blubber-boy Yoochun is taking up acting again since "Dating on Earth". This time, he'll be main actor in a Japanese drama :D It's called "Loving You" (temporary title).



3 dramas to watch:
Paradise Meadow - Changmin
Sunao ni Narenakute / 素直になれなくて / Hard To Say I Love You - Jaejoong
Oh My Lady - Siwon
Loving You - Yoochun


I watched a little of Oh My Lady the other day (sis was watching). Before the Suju concert, I wasn't a fan of Siwon, but seeing him at the concert changed my perspective because he's so friendly in real :) He's the 2nd friendliest (Heechul was 1st, of course ;) during the concert. Hehe so that's why I'm going to watch his drama after finals~



So much to study, so little time. Still procrastinating. Keep saying "tomorrow study la, still got time". 2 weeks left. No time already D:

STUDY FIRST, PLAY LATER!
I watched Kaichou Wa Maid-sama's 1st episode on Animax yesterday night. Very impressed by the voice actor and the smoothness of the plot :)

Just started reading the manga just now.. there's 55 chapters (still on-going). Can't wait for finals to be over! I already have a long list of manga and anime to watch!
Running away from time. 8 days more from finals.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

R.I.P Tohoshinki ♥



R.I.P Tohoshinki ♥ (April 27, 2005 - April 3, 2010)


When Nicole called me to tell me this, I was sort of, okay they're done as tohoshinki, okay, i accept it. To be honest, since last year, around Aug/Oct, right after their lawsuit is in a standstill, I stopped following or reading their news. It's not that I don't like or love or care about them anymore.

For me, there's nothing worthy to do so because all the reasons of me liking them, were not there anymore. They used to be a tight, wonderful family of five. They're funny, adorable, likeable, they are them- Yunho, Jaejoong, Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin. And they're not like that anymore. There were so many rumours of dispute between the boys itself. It doesn't matter whether it's true or not true. There's a reason why there were rumours in the first place. There must be an inch of truth in them. As a fan, I can't continue to like them when the relationship between they themselves has been destroyed.

From the beginning till now, for me, it's not so much about their singing/dancing ability or them being "The Legend".

Even though they're not Tohoshinki anymore, I will still love them as who they are, as five ordinary human beings. I remember watching their shows and laughing with them and being proud of them when they got on Oricon chart. All these little things.. it's not going to go just because they're not THSK anymore. It means a lot to me.

Also, because of them, I met many good friends whom I have became very close to now and I'm very thankful for that. I also discovered my true interest because, something that I might take in the future after I'm done with my studies.

But what saddens me was since the news of their disbandment came out, a huge majority of fans are declaring to stop supporting them as individuals because they're not Tohoshinki anymore and it's just sad to hear that.

I will still continue to support them individually in the future :)



Good luck on your future undertakings, THSK! :D



is very excited to watch changmin and jaejoong's drama ♥♥♥



Thursday, March 25, 2010

twists and turns

Life is a game of monopoly. Humans born, live, and die, and born, live and die, and it repeats and repeats and repeats in a monotonous cycle. Reincarnation is something that I've always felt strongly and believed in.

And right now, I believe that the world will end sonner than it is supposed to. Look at the world, read the news. Earthquakes and floods and storms were rare disasters a decade ago, but look at today, we have haiti, chile, taiwan and now perth. It sorta scares me how much the world is changing and how much more mankind pollution can it takes before it erupts like in 2010?



and i dreamt of you again. i thought it had stop. i'm not taking it as any bull-shit sign anymore.

Thanks Kah Ann for compiling this~
:)

Final Exam


13/04/10 (Tue)
BA205 Financial Management 1 2.30 PM Exam Hall

17/04/10 (Sat)
BA209 Management Accounting 1 10.00 AM Exam Hall

22/04/10 (Thurs)
BA207 Financial Accounting 2 10.00 AM Exam Hall

23/04/10 (Fri)
BA202 Auditing 1 2.30 PM Exam Hall




Time Table for May 2010

Mon - 10:00 - 12:00 Company Law (L)
3:30 - 5:00 Taxation 1 (T)

Tue - 2:00 - 3:30 Financial Management 2 (T)
4:00 - 6:00 Business Research Method (L)

Wed - 9:30 - 11:00 Company Law (T)
12:30 - 2:00 Business Research Method (T)

Thu - 8:00 - 10:00 Financial Management 2 (L)
12:00 - 2:00 Taxation 1 (L)

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

There are moments when I want to go back. I lie on the bed and relish the wonderful moments back then. We will come back again and this time, we will make it :)

Final Exam

Thanks Kah Ann~


13/04/10 (Tue)
BA205 Financial Management 1 2.30 PM Exam Hall

17/04/10 (Sat)
BA209 Management Accounting 1 10.00 AM Exam Hall

22/04/10 (Thurs)
BA207 Financial Accounting 2 10.00 AM Exam Hall

23/04/10 (Fri)
BA202 Auditing 1 2.30 PM Exam Hall
I am truly sorry that our actions made u feel left out. For me, it was somewhat, a mutual decision to do so. I was having difficulty approaching you and I don't know how to talk to you. What do I say to you if I call you?

There are some things that I can't force myself to do.. even if it means severing ties with you. Photos hurt, i know. I experience it myself so I know how it feels to be left out.

I'm sorry.

But, I'll get you back with us. In near future. I hope at that time, you'll forgive us for leaving you in the dark. Do wait for us.

Monday, March 22, 2010

100320 Super Junior SS2 Concert in Malaysia

I'm writing this on 22 March, 2 days after the concert so my memory of the concert may be a little hazy.

Before concert
We (me, Xietin, Michelle) left our house at 4.10pm and reached Stadium Putra Bukit Jalil at around 5pm. There were so damn many people at the stadium already, like hundreds and hundreds of fans from all over Asia! There were 4 tents selling merchandises (RM120 = One Suju flag + T-shirt with a cartoonized member on it) and many people were queuing up the buy it.

At one stage, my sister was asking me to queue also cause she said they're collecting free gifts (lol) and I told her, where got free gifts wan? Then, I asked the girl in front of me and she said they're queuing up to collect the t-shirt.

Then, I called Nicole to find her and Michi and her friends. After awhile searching for them, I saw this tall girl who was speaking Korean (So Hee) and I saw Nicole and the rest :D They looked exactly like how they look in pictures! I don't expect them to look different la.. but all these while we're only chatting in MSN so it was great to meet them in real!

At around 5.30pm, Hazel rounded us up with another group (Kino's family members) and we got into the stadium much, much earlier than anyone else :D There were fans staring at us cause I think there were queuing there since hours ago.

Right after we went past the door, there's a group of military guards (I think there were 5 or 6 of them) demanding us "How did u get in and who are with you?" "Where are your passes (VVIP/All Access)?". They're like freaking serious and scary. Even when Hazel told the guards that we're with her, they still asked her to get passes for us to walk in.

So after Hazel got the passes (Royal VVIP Box), the guards escorted us and let us in through the L1 doors into the stadium. Apart from us, no one else was inside except for a group of dancers (I think dancers la) on the stage and SM staffs at the controlling/computers section (right in front of L1). It was so cool :D and we started taking pics of the empty stadium. The proof that we're the 1st one inside!

After awhile, someone (it was either the guard or Hazel) called us out again and escorted us to a VVIP room. We had to go down the emergency stair case and we went to one area where Hazel asked us to keep especially quiet cause there were people (VVIPs) around there. Then, Nicole went to take a peep and she was like"OMG I SAW SUJU PASSING BY!!!" and all of us went apeshit for a while :D Later, she told us that it was Sungmin and Yesung (I think?) that passed by.

Then, Hazel came back and brought us to a VVIP room where we meet the rest of them. After awhile (like 20 minutes in the room), we're brought out to the stadium again. This time, there's a few people inside already.


During the concert

1. Lee Teuk appeared right in front of us during the opening of the concert and he is so good-looking! I never notice him in SJ because his features doesn't really stand out in pictures but in real, wow~ so handsome and he reminds me of Lee Joon from MBLAQ.

2. Ryeowook came out for his solo dance - Insomnia. When the dancer came out, the fans started shouting like crazy. To be honest, I wanted to him to dance with her even though he's my fave from SJ xD His cheekbones are so sharp!

3. Heechul and Siwon came out holding hands and one of them was holding a heart shape pillow. Then, SiChul stopped in the middle of the stage (right in front of us) and started pumping the pillow between them (Fans went apeshit @_@)

4. will continue if i remember next time.

Friday, March 19, 2010

Yesterday, I said the wrong thing. I found out that i cannot show my honesty to everyone. Because i think i made a mistake of saying what's on my mind even though I don't have the intention to make the person hurt or uncomfortable.

I thought, being honest is good and everyone will be able to accept it, but I guess I'm wrong.

I must think before I say something next time :)

Monday, March 15, 2010

Tagged by sis~

Bold your favorites!

1. Siwon (Super Junior)
2. Donghae (Super Junior)
3. Kyuhyun (Super Junior)
4. Kibum (Super Junior)
5. Kangin (Super Junior)
6. Leeteuk (Super Junior)
7. Eunhyuk (Super Junior)
8. Kim Ryeowook (Super Junior)
9. Sungmin (Super Junior)
10. Han Geng (Super Junior)
11. Heechul (Super Junior)
12. Shindong (Super Junior)
13. Yesung (Super Junior)
14. Zhou Mi (Super Junior)
15. Henry Lau (Super Junior)

16. GDragon (BigBang)
17. Choi Seung Hyun [T.O.P] (BigBang)
18. Daesung (BigBang)
19. Taeyang (BigBang)
20. Seungri (BigBang)

21. Jaebeom (2PM)
22. Nichkhun (2PM)
23. Taecyeon(2PM)
24. Wooyoung (2PM)
25. Junsu (2PM)
26. Lee Junho (2PM)
27. Chansung (2PM)

28. Max Changmin (TVXQ)
29. Xiah Junsu (TVXQ)
30. Micky Yoochun (TVXQ)
31. U-Know Yunho (TVXQ)
32. Hero Jaejoong (TVXQ)

33. Lee Joon (MBLAQ)
34. Seungho (MBLAQ)
35. G.O (MBLAQ)
36. Mir (MBLAQ)
37. CheonDoong/Thunder (MBLAQ)

38. DongWoon (BEAST)
39. Yoseob (BEAST)
40. JunHyung (BEAST)
41. HyunSeung (BEAST)
42. DooJoon (BEAST)
43. GiKwang/AJ (BEAST)

44. Hongki (FTI)
45. Jonghun (FTI)
46. Choi Minhwan (FTI)
47. Jaejin (FTI)
48. Seunghyun (FTI)

49. Lee Seunggi
50. Lee Minho
52. Kim Bum

53. Taemin (SHINee)
54. Jonghyun (SHINee)
55. Minho (SHINee)
56. Lee Jinki [Onew] (SHINee)
57. Key (SHINee)

58. HyunJoong (SS501)
59. YoungSaeng (SS501)
60. JungMin (SS501)
61. KyuJong (SS501)
62. Kim HyungJoon (SS501)

63. Song Joong Ki
64. Jang Geun Suk

65. LeeU (F.Cuz)
66. Jinon (F.Cuz)
67. Yejun (F.Cuz)
68. Kan (F.Cuz)

69. Wonbin (ex- FT Island)
70. ChangHyun (SHU-I)
71. MinHo (SHU-I)
72. Inseok (SHU-I)
73. HyunJoong (SHU-I)
74. Jinseok (SHU-I)

75. Ha MinWoo (ZE:A)
76. Hwang KwangHee (ZE:A)
77. Jung HeeChul (ZE:A)
78. Moon JunYoung (ZE:A)
79. Park HyungShik (ZE:A)
80. Im SiWan (ZE:A)
81. Kim TaeHun (ZE:A)
82. Kim DongJun (ZE:A)
83. Kevin Kim (ZE:A)


84. Shin SooHyun (U-KISS)
85. Alexander (U-KISS)
86. Kim Kibum (U-KISS)
87. Eli (U-KISS)
88. Lee KiSub (U-KISS)
89. Kevin Woo (U-KISS)
90. Shin DongHo (U-KISS)

91. Bi Rain

92. Changmin (2AM)
93. Jinwoon (2AM)
94. Seulong (2AM)
95. Jokwon (2AM)

96. CL (2NE1)
97. Minji (2NE1)
98. Bom (2NE1)
99. Sandara Park (2NE1)

100. Kim Taeyeon (SNSD)
101. Sooyoung (SNSD)
102. Seohyun (SNSD)
103. Tiffany (SNSD)
104. Hyoyeon (SNSD)
105. Jessica (SNSD)
106. Sunny (SNSD)
107. Yuri (SNSD)
108. Yoona (SNSD)

109. Yonghwa (CN Blue)
110. Jungshin (CN Blue)
111. Jonghyun (CN Blue)
112. Kang Minhyuk (CN Blue)

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Very, very long never blog already!

Hmm, let's see. I'll just blog whatever that comes to my mind.

Oh yesh, haha today's conversation during lunch. We're chatting about boyfriend's height (don't know who start this topic wan) and ... nvm lah i also forgot what they say already. I got STM (short term memory). Haha but i say its easy for me and Cheryl (I know u taller than me A LITTLE BIT ONLY) cause we're both average height. Takkan got guys shorter than us meh? hehe ;D

I don't know when I have this kind of attitude. If I do something, I must do it perfectly or be the best of it. It means that if i want to be something, i want to be the best or one of the best. I don't want to be ordinary.

I still have many things that i want to achieve but I'm not sure if there's enough time to do it. After graduate, straight away work, then study ACCA, Master, and another degree. But see first la, maybe by that time i have no interest in another degree already :)

I want to work in Big 4. That's my aim after i graduate.



I'm addicted to seaweed tablets. I eat like 20-30 tablets a day. Grandma said its good for clearing toxic, but idk really anot la. Eat for fun only hehe.



Watching Star Golden Bell now~ CNBlue + Mblaq :D

Sunday, March 7, 2010

omg so hungry now. i wanna nom nom my dad's curry chicken. why are they not back yet?

recurring dreams

I've just spent 2 hours google-ing on dreams. I'm being dragged down emotionally by the dreams. I used to dream about you once or twice in a month, but now it's 3 to 4 times in a week. It's becoming more constant these days and and when i wake up, it hits me so badly because it was so real, like you're really there, talking and being next to me. It's always about the same thing...

I'm not even sure which is real and which is the past anymore.

I need to start a journal soon.




Gonna stop this soon. I'm over it haha.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

dreams

So i was chatting with my sister yesterday night about dreams. Asked her shit load of questions. The she fell asleep during my interrogation. -.-

I tried google but.. it's not the answers i'm looking for.



I posted this on my FB the other day "I've lost something very important to me". Some of the replies are really l-o-l wan. Really did not expect those kind of replies hehe.

Actually, the "thing" that i lost.. is not an object. It is something that i treasured a lot.. that is extremely precious to me. Even though it may seem like it doesn't matter to me anymore, but it does. After so many years, it still does. Occasionally, i think about it and it affects my mood badly.

I thought about this yesterday. The difference between dreams and real-life is you can capture real life, but not dreams. You can take pictures and videos of the people, places but in dreams, you can only remember it as long as your brain is capable of doing it. Even if you remember it, the details fade day by day.

Pieces of it will fade from your memories.. until none is left.